Be yOuRsELf

Today I went to Vijayanagar for the same old reason. I had wandered this same street nearly 6 years back, and I have had almost lost my mind until I received that call from her and she talked to me and she told me that she only called me up because she knew if she hadn't, I would otherwise do things which could best described as "weird" which is exactly I continued exactly how contiued to behave thereafter, for a very long time ever since I missed her. Remebering those old days, as i was roaming, i walked past the hotel, Park avenue, where once Dev and I had dinner on terrace. Just like any other moment, it was not a very enjoyable past-time but as usual, loaded with altercation short of physical fight. This time, we accused each other of having had no ambition and wasting our time in law school and finally we ended our dinner with a promise that we both will achieve something uniuque and better in life after we graduate (Infact he became a differernt person from the beginning of the our final year and I see, he is so determined to achieve what he wanted). I guess we were in 3rd year in col then and we both discussed not to sit for placement and of course never had interest in getting a Job even. we foresaw we were not the kind of people who would fit in the typical employer-employee relationship for he is some one who wants himself to boss others around and a power-hungry person and I am naturally pro-public and corporate-averse guy and and always dreamt about to be a genuine public-representative.

I went to the same hotel and had dinner at terrace. Nothing much has changed since 3 years . It was a crowded day may be since it was a weekend . After dinner, I went to a Paan-shop opposite to the hotel, and since I had some beer and was moderately drunk, I thought of trying a smoke, though am not a smoker and I hoped it would be cool thing to do . Actually when she smoked and as she would exhale, she would tell me, "ohhh Varman, what a feeeeellling". But I would snatch her ciggy immediately and throw it off. At hindsight I think I have had been really ridiculous. She had even asked me "what if I go to my room and smoke?" and to which I would just return her a dumb-ass/helpless look, hoping it would work and i know it would never have! Anyway all that memory came to my mind in a flick of a second, so I thought why not I try to get that same pleasure myself after all. I am not saying I never smoked but I never smoked a ciggarette like it should have been smoked!

I went ahead and bought a ciggy. This time I got the name of the ciggy correct. That made me feel proud about myself. I am not kidding. I had had made this mistake in the past when there was no ciggy with the brand name I asked for!! I needed a match stick. Instead I was provied with a lighter. I tried lighting the ciggy. But the ciggy was not burning, but what I saw was some white thing burning instead of tobacco. I could find no cause for such event. First I thought may be this cigaratte was not packed properly and I tried lighting it again. But it again had some problem getting burnt. By the time, I had to allow the lighter to be used by other customers whose ciggys were behaving like these disciplined children which made me feel a little uneasy and I felt a little low too.

I watched the other customers carefully and I again took my turn this time more sincerely and then started walking towards auto-stand, and I kept puffing the cigarette, trying to act cool, but also realising that I don't feel any tobacco smoke in my mouth. Later I found that the fag end of the ciggy was not burning at all. It pisse me off badly. I thought the cigarette was a bad one and I wanted, at first, to go compliant to the shop keeper about it but later I discovered how I lit the wrong side of the ciggy and that made me get angry over myself. Damn ciggys! both ends looked the same; all white and how could it have been my fault for I was not even a smoker?!! Having realized I should not have tried something which I knew I was not good at and that too just because I found others do it and I wanted to derive some hypocrite "coolness" out of it; I immediately threw the 'the-cause-of-the-problem' in the nearby garbage and told to myself to "Be Yourself" and took an nearby auto in which a cool Hindi song beginning with nice rhythmic acoustic guitar was playing, to reach back campus.

It feels so good

Its my 6th post. Every time I set about to write a post, it 'feels so good'. Although I have not published every post I have typed so far, I have saved safely everyone of them as drafts and I intend to publish them when the right time comes . I have to admit that what keep me inspiring to publish a post are some of the most beautiful blogs I have come across. Each one of them is so unique and so beautiful and special in its own way. I started following them since close to one year from now. I know its a very a short period and I feel like I was loser in the past for having missed out the pleasure I would have got which I have every time I read these blogs and in turn the inspiration I get to publish my own. I will mention below a few blogs which impressed me the most. I, as aforementioned, considered all of them equally briallant. I will take this oppurtunity to thank all the blogs by briefly describing about them in the bestest possible way! First let me begin with,

Latent space

'Latent space'- it's my first love. There is something elegant about this blog. She writes with such a style which makes it so interesting to read every bit of it no matter what she writes about. I have read each and every of her posts. I do not even remember how many times I have read them each and I might read it again when I think I would need to lift my mood up. I have read them when I took my breakfast, when I travelled, before going to bed, while listening to music, and even during work; ensure the boss doesnt watches me and use the comp surreptitiously to check if she has updated her blog; if not read again a few of her old ones and get back to work. Ultimate.

Wanderlust

I thought Latent space might be the best bloggger ever till I came across "Wanderlust" who just amazed me with her blogsite, however, in a different way. Her blog even attracted the widely popular rag in Bangalore City 'Bangalore Mirror' so much that they once plagiarized one of her articles from her blog, which pretty testifies the quality of her blog site. well I would love my blog to be plagiarized! If she were a student of law school, I bet she would have set an example to next generation lawyer for she exhibits all the knowedge and arguments in her writing using her skills and talent!! This blog is Just so HOT :)

Alors
Another blogger I discovered in my recent venture, yet, it has outbeaten many other blogs so easily because of its maturity, profoundness, and intelligence, hence it has found a place for itslef in my post today:). It sometimes turns poetic too! It's now called 'Alors' (formerly 'Percept'). Especially the recent post titled "Becoming" left me speechless! This is because it is exactly the stage of life i am at right now. And I felt like as if the post published was aimed at me! I wish I have read this post, say, 5 years back, I would have been not so confident in life and been a little wary about the limitations of life! But that's life..

A little moment Here

The next one is a cool blogger, who is also my follower. It is 'A little moment Here'. First thing you will get to hear when you enter his blogsite, is his hard-to-put-up and irritating own composition music-like noise(pun-intended) titled "nagarbavi-star". It is only a demo. So if you can bear it and want to hear the full version, you can download it, I think! During 5 years of life in law school, apart from trying to learn from this guy as to how to sing and how to hold and strum a guitar , till recently, I never realised that he had this hidden treasure which is his blog from which I could have learnt a lot from. If you should read his blog, I suggest an extra brain may be necessary to understand the message he tries to convey. Brainy

the Twelfth Man

The Twelfth Man. One word, just one would suffice to best describe this site, "stunning". I hope would not be falling into category which is best described in the the last or may be the lastest post (and I hate him for not publishing for any other post at all after that) . I almost fell off my chair laughing when i read his "Come of Mad Ads ra" post . Well I think you should be able to visualize this guy talking to you when you read this post for which you should have met this person which is not possible for all who read his blog to have that privilege, nevertheless, i swear it is, I repeat, stunning, reading, his blog.

Looking at the world from the Bottom of the Well

Its another one nice blog though. Its too bulky to read to everything the blogger posts though yet I have to admit this blog has changed the very notion of what I thought a blog should be like. This blogger turns even of her normal daily events into a sweet tale. So I stopped thinking that reading many books or watching movies is not a necessary prerequisite to write a blog. I realised even writing about a daily's event could make a good post in my blog. - Beautiful and Helpful!

Wanna Praxis Engine

Creative, humorous, lively, and kickass. This blog rocks, and I simple love it :)

I am sure there are thousand and more blogs out there which I have missed to discover how great they are but I hope to come to learn bout them as well, in near future and a big cheers to all bloggers. Happy blogging!